Figuring it Out

From the desk of The J to the O... 

Life is a big steamy
BITCH sometimes. We all figure when we are younger that at some point things will click, or that our destiny will become apparent. Colored by our past, our upbringing, and our experiences, our visions of the future are usually just light shining through a mosaic of broken, and definitely stained glass on a wall of our youthful ideals.  My personal past is one of turmoil and mixed prophesy. It's a juxtaposition of principles, and of beliefs, and of aspirations, and of awkward self assessments. The pain and confusion I have endured manifests symbolically as the painted tears found on my face. 

That all being said...
F#ck it. Sometime you need to stop trying to figure it out, plop your balls on the table, and go to work doing whatever the hell it is you do. Sometimes you just need to build, or work, or grow something. Clean the garage, plant a damn garden, I don't know.  Stop expecting me to have all the answers. I'm in this bitch we call life with you.  I've resolved that, in any case, I'm gonna keep pushing on and figuring more stuff out as I go, because one thing I am NOT is a coward.  Life isn't going to push me around without me pushing back.

If life tries to come at me, I'll grab it and judo throw its bitch ass.  If some horrible sh*
t happens to me, I'll probably crysterbate over it pathetically in the aftermath, but eventually I'll come to my senses and write a song about it. Turn that sh*t into some hot bars or banging beats and put it on my album.  If some punk ass back-stabbs me, I'll pry through the psychology behind it all and turn it into a beautiful moving message that will help others.  

That's one thing
I have figured out... There is ALWAYS a step forward, always a momentum to shift, always a hidden key in the situation. I think it's just our job to find it, and keep learning one step at a time. I'm going to shower and go to bed, my ass itches because I just got out of a hot tub with way too much chlorine in it.  Hey I just got out of a hot tub, life can't be that bad can it? 

-J

PS: There was no particular reason I made "my ass itches" large and bold, but now I just made you read that sentence twice... HAHAHAHAHAHAHA


9 comments

  • Anonymous
    Anonymous
    I just had to google "crysterbate" because I didn't get the context at first smh

    I just had to google "crysterbate" because I didn't get the context at first smh

  • Jon Allie
    Jon Allie Minneapolis Minnesota
    Nice. Looking forward for more of these segments

    Nice. Looking forward for more of these segments

  • Stefhon Smith
    Stefhon Smith Dallas,TX
    I love and appreciate reading this, also that last part got me laughing, can't wait read more of these.

    I love and appreciate reading this, also that last part got me laughing, can't wait read more of these.

  • BatGreg
    BatGreg
    Not much more you can do than say fuck it. Sometimes it's the only thing worth doing to keep your sanity...Or slight insanity hah

    Not much more you can do than say fuck it. Sometimes it's the only thing worth doing to keep your sanity...Or slight insanity hah

  • Mitchell Avery-Hoy
    Mitchell Avery-Hoy Port Macquarie
    if I ever start a band... I'm gunna call it crysturbate

    if I ever start a band... I'm gunna call it crysturbate

  • Johnny Slash
    Johnny Slash Kennewick Wa,
    Haha good blog man. Good message as always ?

    Haha good blog man. Good message as always ?

  • Tony Reaper
    Tony Reaper Florida
    Your a damn Goober Jokerr. Nice looking site though. Who did it?

    Your a damn Goober Jokerr. Nice looking site though. Who did it?

  • Fatal Kuro
    Fatal Kuro Thomaston.GA
    You always seem to have some type of good message in your songs, I really enjoy listening to your music. I get it man all of it, the first part I can relate my family did the same to me. I wish you the best of luck on your music and sending out your words towards your blog. I am really looking forward to reading more what you have to say J.

    You always seem to have some type of good message in your songs, I really enjoy listening to your music. I get it man all of it, the first part I can relate my family did the same to me. I wish you the best of luck on your music and sending out your words towards your blog. I am really looking forward to reading more what you have to say J.

  • aithen
    aithen sa
    bro whats your name

    bro whats your name

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